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im going out again yesterday. hanging out with van. its her birthday actually. but no one else came cause she told them all the hangout activity had been canceled. but i comfirmed to her that i can come last minute. and there we were. going up and down the escalator. round and round the mall. we got nothing to do. then we stop there syping over a guy at porsche. awww. he’s cute. at first i thought he was malay. but he looks like chinese. then van and i went to the shop. arghh. the guy was at my back. as last, we figured out that the guy was chinese. no more crush on him. -.-“

we round the mall again. she’s looking for some clothes. she asked me to join the teen party. i just said YES. and then she was just like ‘ARE YOU SERIOUS ?’ i said, yaa. but i don’t really mean it though. but then, wan said he will performed forthat night. i guess im serious now but wait until i asked my mommy first. van was confused bout what she should wore for the party. she was thinking bout wearing skinny. then i told her to wear a dress. i mean, its red carpet aite ? but the advertisement said u can wear whatever you want. we walk into many stores. i thought my legs were gonna break. there’s one dress she tried. she can’t really get that on. it stucks. she didn’t opened the zip. the dress can’t get in and it stucks to her upper body only covering all her hands. im lmao. i think i was gonna pee there watching her putting that dress on. i was like OMGOATT ! WHAT THE HECK WITH YOU ?? HAHAHAHA.

OMGOAT ! it stucks. she can’t get it out ! lol

then we went to supersave. that was where all the crazy stuff we did. we took some pictures. we don’t really care it anyone saw us taking innocence pictures. it’s our day out and btw, im out with the birthday girl. it’s okay to do some stupid stuffs together aite ?

ben 10. deena will be crazy if she saw this picture.

gees. im promoting a bra. save your boobies, wear this bra. tehehehehe.

i force her to promote this underwear. but she didn’t refused btw. she’s the promoter for ‘i dont know’ underwear’s brand. its once in a life time job van (:

the end of the day. together (:

the end of the day, but its not really end i guess, i went for a date at waterfront and i left her all alone. i felt bad but i catch up with her bout an hour and a half later. its a great day. i have fun.

•  33 things a perfect ‘guy’ will do

1.  know how to make you smile when you’re down.
2.  try to secretly smell your hair.
3.  stick up to you but still respects you.
4. play with your hair.
5. come from behind and put his arms around you.
6. his hands always find your hands.
7. sing, even if he can’t.
8. react cutely when you hit him even if it hurts.
9. offer plenty of massages.
10. gives you the control during the game.
11. give you one of his t-shirt to sleep in.
12. leave you a cute text note.
13. tells you that you look beautiful
14. look into your eyes when he talks to you.
15. let you mess with his hair.
16. just walk around with you.
17. forgive you for all your mistakes.
18. look to you like you’re the only girl that he sees.
19. hold your hands when he’s around his friends.
20. you you start swearing him, he tells you that he loves you.
21. let you fall asleep in his arms.
22. gives you butterfly kisses.
23. he stays on the phone even if you don’t say anything.
24. tease you and let you tease him back.
25. stay up all night with you when you’re sick.
26. watch your favourite movie with you.
27. kiss your forehead.
28. give you the world.
29. let you wear his clothes.
30. he hangs up with you when you’re sad.
31. let you know that you’re important.
32. kiss you in the pouring rain.
33.  he tells you when he falls in love with you.

note to guys : WHEN YOU TELL HER YOU LOVE HER, LOVE HER LIKE YOU’VE NEVER LOVED SOMEONE BEFORE.

I WANT A GUY who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me. hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. someone who would sing to me at random moments. who would let me sleep on their chest. a boy who would get mad at someone if they called me UGLY or what was mean to me. i want someone who would call me 3 times a day if he went away. someone who would let me gossip to him and would just smile and agree with everything i said. he would throw stuffed animals at me when i acted dumb and then KISS ME A MILLION TIMES. someone who would make fun of me just to make me LAUGH. he would take me to the beach and put his hands around my waist and give me big teddy bear hugs all the time. he would tell all his friends about me and SMILE when he did it. and we kiss in the pouring rain. he wouldn’t be afraid to say ‘I LOVE YOU’ in front of his friends, and we’d argue about silly things then make up. i want a boy who would kiss me at midnight on new years and count stars with me. someone who would tell me im beautiful but not too often. who would make me laugh like NO ONE else could. but mostly, i want someone who would be my best friend and would never ever break my heart.

• the perfect guy:

the guy that cares more about what’s going on your head that what’s going on in his pants. the guy that want you to be nothing less that happy. the guy that would give anything just to see you smile. the guy that still loves you when you shut him out. the guy that refuses to give up on you because he knows how important you are. the guy that treats you the same in front of his friends, family or just you two. the guy that doesn’t see you as a responsibility but a reward. the guy that knows how lucky he is to have someone like you and the guy that knows how awful it would be to lose you.

• in others thought …

i don’t want to find ‘the perfect guy’. i want to find a guy strong enough to show me his flaws. someone i could trust with ALL my secrets. i want a guy who would never take advantage of my feelings. he would want to be with me no matter what. i could show him my flaws and he would still love me and want to be with me. i want a guy who would always tell me the truth. i don’t want a guy to tell me he loves me because he thinks that is what i want to hear. i want him to tell me he loves me and means it. i need a guy who loves me fo me, nothing more, nothing less. i want a man who would fight for me even though i make mistakes. someone who is willing to give me more than one chance because he just wants to be with me. i don’t want to be his whole world but i want to be his favourite part. i want someone who would come to me with all of his problems. someone who i could go to crying and he would do anything to help me. i don’t need or want a guy who would just want to get in my pants. but then again, i don’t want someone who is prude. if you know what i mean. i want someone who would be happy cuddling with me ALL night. who could just sit there and hold my hand and honestly say he had a GREAT time with me. i know that i maybe too young for love, but i do want something close. a guy who would take a bullet for me even though i don’t let him =] honestly, i need a guy who is sincere and is looking for the same thing as i am. i don’t want a friend with benefits or a boyfriend who thinks this relationship is just to have fun. sure we will have fun and enjoy ourselves but i want a relationship to be based on our feelings and not just someone to take up my time. i know i maybe confusing but i need a guy who understands me. i am just sick of getting my heart broken and falling head over heels for someone who thinks not much of me. I WANT A GUY WHO KNOWS THE REAL ME AND LOVE EVERY PART OF IT (:

• recipe for a perfect guy

mature beyond his years, great with words, can express his feelings, can play instruments (preferably guitar), fun, in touch with feminine side, amazing to look at, good fashion sense, increadibly intelligent <3

——»> to meet a guy , not embrassed to hold my hand in public, always makes me smile when i think about him. calls me back when i hang up. laughs at my jokes even if they are bad. supports and listens to me. thinks of me when he hears a love song. goes through any means to see me. calls me BEAUTIFUL. someone who will hold me through the night. someone who will call me at 3 a.m. just to say he couldn’t sleep because he missed me.

my man, you remember this ?

i’ll keep this with me. you know how much this mean to me. i remember how you scold me for not wearing the necklace. it makes my ears and my ass burn. at that time, i just want to sream so that you can shut the fuck up. but now, i won’t take it off no matter what. happy uh ? you should. thanks for everything. i love tooooo much(:

• amazing facts about my superman :

1. he wakes me up every morning.
2. tell me what’s right and wrong.
3. scold me sometimes, but i gets it at the end :]
4. kiss my forhead when im speechless.
5. hold my hands and that drives me crazy.
6. give me a teddy bear hugs which make my hearts beat faster that usual.
7. calls me at night just to say good night.
8. tell me he loves me everyday.
9. he always says how important and amazing i am to him.
10. always remind me how important God is.
11. hold my hands in front of his friends.
12. gimme some candies. gosh, it’s sweet !
13. make me smile even when im down.
14. his kisses give me a butterfly.
15. he smells good.
16. i love his touch.
17. he never give up with my attitude.
18. accept me as who i am not what he wants me to be.
19. he knows what i like and what’s my greatest fear.
20. he once do some case just to meet me.
21. very talented.
22. makes me laugh all the time.
23. sometimes he act like my daddy. he plays with my hair. gets my hair off my eyes.
24. do anything i asked him to.
25. kiss my hand and it gives me a creep.
26. look in my eyes deeply.
27. always tell me that i have sweet scent.
28. a real bully !
29. appreciate me damn much.
30. he knows that i love him with all my heart.
31. he knows me really well.
32. always act like a baby, but he’s my baby.
33. THE BEST FACT OF ALL, HE’S MY GUARDIAN ANGEL (:

there’s sooo much more but i didn’t list it here.

needy guy : overly emotional and shares all his feelings right away. doubts himself and needs constance reassurance about everything.

predictable guy : follows formulas and never wants to do anything differently. boring !

arrogant guy : huge ego and condescending. rude to anyone he perceives as beneath him. blah.

boorish guy : checking out other girls while in my presence. very flirty and brags about his past conquests. no respect to girls PERIOD !

cheap guy : asking to be his girlfriend right away even if i knew him for only 5 minutes ago.

the arguer : turns every conversation into an argurement. makes me feel like im in debate competition. makes me feel defensive and self-conscious.

the saddest case was happened about  4 hours ago. i know i maybe sound a bit silly here. you know, being like a little girl who was left by her own daddy. oh yah, bout my father (being out of the topic for a minute) he’ll be coming back on december 23rd. he’ll celebrate christmas in malaysia this year. but sadly, he couldn’t come during gawai. if he comes on gawai day this year, then he will not gonna make it for christmas. blah. haha. i miss him alot. he’ll not stays in malaysia for a long time. only a couple of weeks. i wish i could spend my whole holidays with him. if i can though. but sadly, NOOOO )’:

i really miss celebrating christmas with my family. i think im gonna flash back a bit o my memories here. when i was about 9 years old or something, when its nearly christmas, i was soo excited. what i really like the most ? the rain of course. i love it. i love it when i get cold. i sneeze and sneeze and S-N-E-E-Z-E

okay, back to the main topic, imgoat ! why oh why should he lost his phone ? how can i contact him ? it really makes me confuse. a day without him is like im living in the hell on earth. argh -.-# i missed him already. its been 4 hours now. i feel like im gonna cry. stupid uh ? i know. im being silly here but hey, its true what. so now, i just have to wait until he buys new phone. gosh. it will take a long time though. can i stand for a while ? i hope soo. but seriously, i really miss him. badly. man, i love u )’: